A PM to Bob~

Thanks for your big reply,
I appreciate that you took the time to share things with me.
That's noble.

[quote="Bob"]Hi Dan,

[quote]I'd like to talk to you a bit if that is ok?
From the times I've read things from you in the religion area, it seems to be that you're an atypical christian spiritual type of person. I'm not entirely sure on what your beliefs are, but you seem to have read the bible and that changes a person if they believe in it.[/quote]
Sure we can talk, although my person isn't so interesting. I started off in England as an Anglican with family ties to Methodism, but it all died for a while. I was more interested in Philosophy and Psychoanalysis and was taken to Erich Fromm for quite a while. When I decided to sit down and prove the Bible to be an ideological agenda with no connection to reality I found that I was wrong, but that it was my affinity to poetry, language and literature as a whole that gave me an advantage over some of the people around me. I had come to Germany by then, had married and was struggling learning the language and making a living here, but the Bible gripped me and I ended up amongst a group of mainstream Christians attracted to the evangelical movement in America.

For over twenty years I taught and preached as a lay-person, but in that time I noticed that the evangelical position was missing the point. I started, edged on by people writing about the Mystics and other people like Anthony de Mello, to look at the broader picture of religion and humanity, at the importance of story-telling in culture. I began to realise that the inspiration of the Bible authors and that of spiritual writers in other cultures and religions showed similarities and even echoed each other, and began to see religion as another art-form, expressing that which is in the soul, and how we understand the world. My popularity waned in evangelical circles, but I took up a different vocation in Elderly Care and found myself suddenly in the attention of people again.

I took up meditation and yoga, changed my prayer-life, looked for expression and exchange outside of the church, travelled widely (Egypt, Greece, Sri-Lanka, India, and I had been at an “impressionable age” when we were in Malaysia for three years) and picked up on other people who had done the same, Thomas Merton, Jörg Zink, Thomas Keating, John Main, Anselm Grün and numerous others, mostly in the monastic orders. I started looking at Buddhism and Hinduism, finding that I started understanding Christ differently, but as people who know me say, more profoundly than I had before. My audience is now a different one and it is connected to a Way, and is faith in action rather than faith in theory.[/quote]

That sounds pretty interesting.
I consider people's minds as kindof sacred, and i feel like i better not make any mistakes if i ever preach or teach something. It takes a measure of courage to preach. You said you preached and taught for over twenty years? Wows.
I like to share ideas but not with an authority. Travelling must have taught you first hand allot of things about humanity. To me that sounds almost luxurious i'm glad you could afford to do it, but i think it was money well-spent.
People couldn't always travel to foreign countries we didn't have the means. Tourism is a modern thing.

[quote][quote]I believe in angels. Do you believe in angels? I think that when souls get more advanced and enlightened, they become more good and they can commune with the good in the universe. The interconnecting matrix of goodness in reality is like God's organs and bodyparts, and that type of God is the being which angels live with symbiantly. Humans can become angellic if they choose to go down that path.[/quote]
I don't believe in angels but I also don't disbelieve in them. I think there is more to reality than we can perceive, which we already know is limited by our senses, which only have a certain function and are not even trained well to do that completely. But is there more than our senses could ever perceive and is there such a thing as a spiritual perception, or is the metaphysical just a plane of intuition based upon empirical experience? The effect of enlightenment, as small and fleeting as the understanding may be, is nonetheless profound.

Is there a soul, or is sentience something that is formed out of many intuitions which are produced by various glands and brain areas? If it is interconnected with the body, what chance has it of surviving the death of our body? Or is there something non-corporeal in us, like we used to think up to two centuries ago? Since we experience life as a multi-series of vibrations, of on-off, yes-no, moving in a cyclic formation, could it be we come back again? There are more questions than answers, and even the few answers we have present us with new questions.
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Well I'm almost an occultist. Or maybe even a magician.
What does that mean? I think ancient metaphysics is still valid today.
I try to be really careful in what i believe in.
Lots of people have had experiences with angels. These people have no reason to lie or make it up.
They have a hard time believing it themselves but some are willing to express their experiences.
Things like angel experiences have been documented you can find out about it if you look.
I'm like 99% sure that there are allot of angels in the universe. They aren't stereotypical servants with bird wings,
they are manifestations of the higher natural benevolence and how it essentially exists in the universe.
Some of my trusted friends have seen angels materialize. Not many people see this but I think it does happen.
Enochian is an example of angels teaching an entire new language and system of operations to some of humanity.
I believe that some people can be trusted.
I try not to be imbalanced with my mistrust.
Why did people write up huge lists of the names of various angels and the nature of them.
Did one guy just make it up for the hell of it? Probably not. People sencerely believed in
this and thought it was important enough to write about and preserve for others to learn from.
Paper wasn't easy to get back then they took writing seriously.
When you expressed a sort of neutrality about angellics i was surprised.

Modern whites teach that ancient foreign native cultures are primative and wrong.
They teach that myths are old supersitions created out of ignorance and primative thought.
I tell you now that old cultures and modern cultures are equal.
Humans were still human no matter the race or the era in time.
There have been many einstiens throughout history but their tools of expression have changed with culture.
In this way i feel i can trust some old and some new people.
Humans have developed advanced complex systems even in times when they had primative tools and technology.
As technology changed, the avenues of human expression changed also.
When humans only have a narrow limited avenue of expression, this creates
a higher potency of a focal point. That means that if you restrict the means
of a human, they spend more time on a single system and they become more professional
at that system. When people only had the universe and eachother, without all kinds
of gadjets and diversions, they had more time to master social skills and a sense of nature.
I believe this is why the lost art of mysticism was lost.
Just as the baby has the genes of its parents, creation has the essence of its creator within it.
Some people learned how to tap into the little piece of God that is latent within their own existence,
and used it to reflect the light from the highest God. Through this sympathetic magick i believe
that mysticism was practiced. We take the highest best possable products of man, and that reflects
God. That is why the gods had beautiful human bodies, vast intellect, love, moral perfection, creativity, etc.
Mysticism works, if you do it right. It works very well. We live in the footprints of the divine.
Sadly the God science was at least partially lost and we had to put faith in its origins.
I'm trying to describe the origin of some types of religion, because i think that's something you
care about. Hopefully you understand what I'm trying to say. It's just a theory. You seem smart
to me so I think you'll get it.

[quote][quote]I think christianity has some mistakes, like forbidding homosexuality, but ultimately christianity is a positive effort. It's an attempt at the truth and applying it well into our daily lives. Truth is a hard thing, what if we make a mistake and don't realize it? But that's how beliefs are, they are necissary dispite their fallability.[/quote]
Homosexuality is first of all something that has to be recognised as a possibility, which it obviously is. However, sexuality is something with which we have relatively recently hyped up by inventing a method to prevent women become pregnant. This means that, just as sexuality has gained far greater attention, so has homosexuality. In very traditional societies, such as in the ancient world, homosexuality was a given thing, but nearly always a trait of decadence, because sexuality was altogether decadent in such circles and the accidents were either disposed of or paid off. This has coloured the approach of the Bible authors to sexuality and homosexuality in particular.

Today, we must ask ourselves whether sexuality, in the way it is commonly expressed, is a sign of decadence or normalcy. In this way we will understand our approach to homosexuality. Sam Harris recently said on TED, that the glossy girly magazines can hardly be a good advertisement for our liberal society, just as the Burqa isn't a good advertisement for Islam. It would seem that there is a certain amount of decadence in our society and its profundity is questionable. An attempt to change that seems to be the protests against Homosexuality in America, but it is one-sided and we should rather look at the exploitation of sexuality as a whole as a real sign of decadence from which a great deal of complications emerge.

Hope I have been able to give you some indication of how I think, you could tell me your own views as a reply.

Shalom[/quote]

I was raised a Jehovah's Witness they are bible literalists.
I'm 25 i was full JW for about 20 years i can't remember exactly.
If you like to read then hold on, i will type out lots for you.

I slowly found little flaws in the way that the JWs taught things.
It was kindof heart breaking to doubt the JW system of thought.
JWs teach a total moral system that you apply to your entire existence.
They train people to devout their entire life and their highest hopes to 'God' and the bible system that they worked with.
When I developed my larger doubts, I felt almost like i was going to die and I felt my life-force leaving my heart.
I was scared and I held my mom's hand as i layed there. James and mom could physically feel the negative energy
coming off of my body, it was a big thing for me. But that and other phases passed. I was even atheist for a little while.
But due to my nature i continued on with my life and tried to fill my existence with True-Good.
I am willing to change because I believe that perfection is good and possible.
I have my doubts about the soul and the afterlife but if I can, i plan to retain as many
of my plans as possible. I've been making plans about my afterlife, possible reincarnations,
what planes and dimensions I should focus on most, building up a good set of familiars to
hopefully stay with me throughout the journey. Some people would think that I'm insane.
Did you see Avatar? The movie? The natives in that movie considered the human futurists to
be insane. The human futurists considered the natives to be idiots. That's happening to us now.
Science can't appreciate the ancients, and the ancients never had the modern sciences.
Remember what I said, when our options are limited it creates a concentration.
When technology changes, focus and methods shift and the nature of our existence changes form.
I've been diagnosed as a paranoia schitzophrenic. I don't believe that's the true nature of
my illness but I'm not exactly fitting into modern perceptions.
I like the efficiency of modern technology. I like how we have faster easier lives.
But it's possible that too much intelligence makes a being stupid.
It's possible to be drunk with the power and beauty of consciousness.
I believe some gods have gone completely insane from their own blessed gifts.
Do you understand how that can happen, at least how it can partially happen?
I think that's happening to humanity, even though humanity isn't very smart compared
to the higher beings which exist. That's also why animals have pure souls.
Animals exist in simplified, restricted existences. This creates a focal point,
a higher concentration of focus. This means that animals don't bother with the
sophistry of evil. They are all innocently trying to survive and do the only good
that they know how to do.
This is maybe one of the reasons why the Somaras adopt less evolved and less advanced
species and individuals into their society. Expanding on ancient paradigms that the moderns
missed. I'm not entirely sure that the Somaras exist but if I'm right, one idea is that
they are the main spirits which I'm meant to be with. They are a part of my True Will
and my divine purpose. Are you familiar with thelema or Aleister Crowley?
He died from a disease he caught from drinking cat's blood.
I believe he was drunk with the vast brilliance of magick. I don't like him, but he
did good in his life. I don't even want to repeat his name in my mind. I've shunned
him as much as i can, but I've read about him as much as i could when i was still
into his whole theme. People have done great good and great evil, even both at the
same time by the same person. We are naturally impure, in my perception, and like
follows like in the natural tendancies of the universe, therefor other beings are also
impure, and impurity is somewhere in the fabric of the causal basis and matrix of
our essence. This and due to abundant proof, I also believe in demons. Somehow
they have a place in all of this, and I consider them to be entirely natural.
I don't believe that we should hate demons. I believe that there are higher forms
of thought which are more advanced than hate but can still provide the positive
situational outcomes of which hate has sometimes produced. To me, hate and aversion,
pain and suffering, are primative old mechanisms we use to navigate our piece
of the grand totality. Therefor hate, aversion, pain and suffering are part of
the grand totality. Therefor there is vast greatness within our specks of hate,
aversion, pain and suffering. Therefor if God is wise, he still considers the finer
details of reality as important. Therefor God has an unexpectedly high concern
for the lives of humans and even animals. Therefor God's values transcend
name and number, magnitude and importance.

I am quite sure that when you die, you will discover hidden truths as the remainder of
your existential totality shifts its focal point. The human body is the main focal
point when we are alive. This concentrates time, energy, thought, emotion, Will, purpose,
natural processes and intentions into a system happening and Willing around the natural
shapes of our home dimension when we are physically alive. We love our parents.
We eat food. We feel higher love. We have millions of different foods and flavors which
we can prepair. But this all comes at a cost. Why? Any finite system is subject to the
finite principals of cost. When we use up everything that we have on the physical plane
within the avenues of the carnal and biological body, we have nothing left for the
other dimensions, events, levels and processes which surround our causal potential.
I look forward to death. There is a change that the Somaras will take me to their
custom-designed reality. It's possible. And even a possability of that makes death
a wonderful opportunity for higher levels of progress.

The Somaras teach that Goods can potentially be derived from anything, even from Pure Evil.
Why? Maybe you wondered 'Why'? Maybe you cared just a little bit? Or you cared allot?
Wonder, care, curiousity, concern, attention, they all have something in common.
They are a focal point, forms of attraction. The universe has many forms of attraction.
This fundamental force is part of Will. Will means allot more than Will.
Maybe Will is Good? Is Will always Good? That's something for me to ponder.
I'm sidetracked but if you have a good attention span then you can follow me.
The Somaras usually design their technology to be as compact as possible.
Now that I think of it, that might be why some species of dragons tend to
make less friends, or why some humans are reserved. If we make less friends,
then we will be able to focus more time and energy on those friends, and the
friendship can have quality before quantity. Maybe that's why most beings
aren't universally benevolent. They are designed by nature not to over-extend themselves.
If you're only benevolent to a small group of people, your benevolence can reach
more complete levels, due to more causal resources being concentrated into that kind
of focal point. Anyways, the Somaras teach that when everything is tightly
constructed into a tiny point, it's harder for it to be destroyed in battle.
Also each component of the compressed structure has less space between the other
components, so that things efficiently reach eachother faster and easier.
Therefor the whole structure can operate more quickly.
Imagine you pushing on a nail with your whole arm. The nail is on a big piece of wood.
Now imagine you pushing the big piece of wood with your arm.
It's allot easier for the nail to penetrate the wood, compared to your arm.
When force is focused into a tiny restricted area, it can overcome things
that are thin and spread-out. That is why a man can lay on a bed of nails without
being hurt, because there are so many nails that force is distributed more widely
around him. If he layed all his weight on just one nail, he would get stabbed.
That's also how a bullet-proof vest works.
So I decided to ask all of my willing servitors to combine into a single being,
based on the theory that concentration is more good than bad.
I try to built up a large sum of reason behind my important choices.
Let's just face it I'm a tiny insect I need all of the efficiency that I can get.
The Somaras said that the physical universe is a broken system.
They said that a proper reality exists as a singularity without time or space.
Can you imagine if all of the univers's energy was concentrated into a single
needle, and instead of being there for a billion years, it was there for only
a second but all of those years and energies were concentrated into a single
moment of higher intensity? That would be extremely strong.
I believe that is why the Somaras said that spacial and temporal universes are flawed.
The Somaras have studied like, trillions of universes, and they came to special
conclusions about reality and nature. For a mysterious reason, I can't access that
information very well. I'm like a retard. I'm like an incompatable component for higher
reality. So I don't really understand much about the Somaras. I still try to remember
whatever seems true from them, though.
When Somaras fight (and they usedto have to fight a heck of allot), they would use
a single super weapon instead of a bunch of tiny little weapons used seprately.
They would target the key core systems of the enemy, destroy those, then the rest
of the system would stop working. It's like using a tiny bullet on someone's brain,
instead of using pellets on their whole skin and other bodyparts. That's how the
Somaras won battles. Maybe you understand what I am saying about focal points,
and a few of the underlying reasons with the Somaras taught that singularities
are better than temporal, spacial, separated systems of reality.

Going back to some of my earlier topics:
An example of how good can be derived from evil: Or to reword that,
how helpfulness can be derived from harmfulness.
Radioactive materials are dangerous to be around. Exposure to those
materials can kill us. But if we put those materials into a nuclear
power plant, the energy can help us. The Somaras can take an evil
lesser demon, cut its bodyparts into little pieces, then rearrange those
pieces and turn the gutts into a benevolent useful drone. They have
effectively turned a harmful force into a helpful force.
When our body experiences a virus or bacteria, it learns from
that harmful force, and uses it to create a helpful force, an immunity.
In these examples I've tried to explain why the Somaras teach that
good can be derived from evil. One risky theory was that new higher
forms of unique Goods could be derived from a more extreme and terrible Evil.
As far as I know, most of the Somaras decided that it's best to use
an alternative to evils in their systems of operation. But some of
the Somaras, a small group, adopted one of my older theories
that Evil, not Good, is the highest most causal force in all
of reality. That is why things are bad more often than they are good.
Bad and neutral outnumbers the good, because Evil is the highest
most common force. I may have designed the first tortorium.
Do you think I'm insane yet? Even if I'm wrong, I'm unique,
you can learn new things from me and put them to good use.
If you're skillfull, you can learn allot even from a flawed wrong system.
This is another reason why I believe that the ancients could make
great discoveries even if they were using partially wrong belief systems.
That is why a genious can believe in a false religion and still do
good things. That is why I have some value, too.
Anyways, I may have designed the first tortorium.
The tortorium is a device which absorbs and generates negative
feelings, experiences, forces and patterns. If you put a brain
into a tortorium, it would turn it into a screaming, spikey,
black, toxic, hateful, fearful, insane, sickened, repulsed,
suffering, self-contradictory, devious, sadistic mutated
pile of mush. If you took some of that brain mush, and
put it onto a body, the body would get infected, turn black,
feel vast pain and grief, then be transformed into an ever increasing
system of suffering as an undead zombie. I think I was wrong
for building a tortorium. It was mainly a weapon. It made
everything as bad as possible, as harmful as possible. Then
the controlled biproduct could be unleashed upon our enemies.
As far as I know, almost all of the tortoriums have been
decompiled and turned into machines which create immunities.
The systems were turned into how-to-cure evil machines.
They were like vaccines.
Is it a little bit of a challenge to tolerate my blatant abnormality of thought?
Try to find some value in what I'm saying.
I've just tried to explain how evil can be a powerful weapon,
and how good can be derived from bad. Earlier I also tried to explain
why concentations are more efficient than seprete and dispursed forces.
For a while, a large group of the Somaras stopped associating with me.
They abandoned me. I was very wrong in my thoughts and intentions.
But I was trying to be right. Later I think they accepted me again.
Now they all love me infinitely.

I'm getting kind of tired now.
I think that there's allot of evidence out there for spirits, ghosts, interdimensionals,
whatever you want to call them. They have been video-taped. I've seen them myself, too.
Most of my family has experienced paranormal stuff. We know that spirits are real.
You sounded kindof doubtful about the soul. In the passed, allot of people fully believed
in the soul. Why did so many people believe in the soul? Were they all wrong? Or did
the ancients discover the soul so long ago that we forgot how they did it? Maybe gods
taught us about the soul? I have my doubts about the soul, but more than 50% I believe
in my soul. Some day we might develop technology so advanced that we can detect
souls on little cameras. The Somaras just said that "Technology is spiritual."
They might not of said that, but that's what the voice said, and it might be them.

To tell you the truth, I think a demon named Frank Lucious tried to screw me over,
he might have even tried to kill me. He effected Amanda, me, James and Lois all
at the same time. We all had bad symptoms and sensed demonic influence. This happened
all at the same time. I "saw" his body, not like the way you see a physical object,
but like seeing a transparent image with color overtop of a natural surface.
I totally believe that this demon was real. I don't think that he was a fallen
angel, might have been, but I don't think he was like, a good angel from the start.
This was like the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
I thought I was so possessed that I was a potential danger to my family, so I
phoned the police, asked them to hand cuff me, then asked that I be sent to
a psychiatric ward where I wouldn't be able to really hurt anybody.
Surprisingly I never did hurt anyone. I tried to be as nice and good as possible,
but I was in allot of pain and anguish. Man let me tell you, you've preached before,
well I say that spirits are real, and there's definitely gods and souls out there.
I don't know if you'll trust me or how much you'll trust me, but I never like to
lie. I always want to be honest and reasonable and careful in what I say.
Along with the bad psychological effects, I had physical pains on my body from
the demon. The doctors thought it was psychosis. Doctors are atheists. When
people say they hear God talking to them, the doctors say "schitzophrenic psychosis",
then they give the people antipsychotic drugs. In a way I believe that the
doctors have been stupified by science. Anyways, I think my doctor,
doctor balachandra, was a decent reasonable person. I liked him allot.
He treated me like his brother. He cared for me when I was the most messed up ever.
Anyways the doctors gave me pills that were supposedto make the 'psychosis' go away.
Well it didn't go away. The main things I felt from the pills was like I felt
slower and less emotional. That did help me to cope, because I was having emotional
extremes. Also I loved Attivan. When you take Attivan, it quickly takes away all
of your bad feelings, and it even calms your physical neurvous system to stop
heart palpatations and muscle strain. Attivan is an anti-anxienty pill.
I should have taken more of that drug durring my hard times but I took it sometimes
and I felt it helped me allot. The demon wasn't all-powerful. He couldn't lift
objects or all that wild stuff. But he sure could cause bad feelings.
I know that this wasn't a gradual delusion of the mind. Because for my whole
life I felt completely fine and normal, but then as Frank was speaking through
Amanda, I challenged him to come to me, then all of a sudden I felt a force
entering my body, and I felt a new mind within my own. At the very moment
when I challenged him, and not before. I'm very sure that this was real.
I'm not asking you to believe me. It probably wouldn't help your existence very
much if you suddenly started believing in demons. I might have sounded like
I really wanted you to believe this, but I was just trying to convey to you
that I had full confidance in what I was saying. If you basically believed
in christianity for quite a few years, then maybe for a while you believed
in angels and demons. Remember, these ideas weren't just random lies that
a single jerk invented, these concepts were developed, specialized theories
created by intelligent groups of concerned human beings which saught to
know and convey the natural truth about real phenomenon.
In some ways I believe in the bible even more than a christian does.
But in other ways I think the bible is a piece of poop because it's just
not perfect enough and it's been part of some negative processes.
It's very possible that I understand nearly nothing about the true
nature of the demon force which overtook a part of me, but I'm trying
to explain that something truly happened, to me and a group of people,
all at the same time bearing similarities and subsiding at the same time
(within around 3 months it left everyone).

Maybe there's a good reason why most of the world is of the Abrahamic Religions.
Not because it is common, because both good and bad can be common, but because
banality reflects the truer nature of the universe. The most common things are
the most natural things.

I have never consciously experienced a spirit which felt stronger than the demon
Frank. I so wish that it would have been a powerful angel. I wish that I could
have crossed paths with a good spirit that was so feelable and experiencable.
But that's not how it happened for me. There is something that I think you
might get value from. Have you ever studied with the Jehovah's Witnesses?
They have "Year Books" if I remember right. Jehovah's Witnesses are trained
to never lie. They teach that God hates lies and deception. Even if some
of the stories and reports from these Jehovah's Witnesses are false,
not all of these stories are false. I personally believe that all of the
accounts recited in the Society's literature are true. All of them.
There was one account of a demon killing a woman's family and it was
abusing her, but then she prayed to Jehovah and it slowly went away.
I believe this. I know that Jehovah is a real god. I think he's partially
misunderstood, but somehow the ancients got his true name and interacted with him.
He's a very intelligent powerful spirit. For a while I haven't prayed much
but I did a big long prayer last night. As I prayed I heard a voice in
my head sometimes replying to my questions. I thought it might be
schitzophrenia, or foolish nonsesnse, or a false spirit, or a combination
of all of those things, but because I thought it was possably part of Jehovah's plans,
I passively allowed the voices to talk to me in my mind. I questioned them.
The speakers were appearantly a group of high ranking angels in charge of
safe guarding some of Jehovah's sacred secrets. I am not sure if Jehovah is
the main God in reality or not, right now I think chances are low that he's
the true highest god, but I think it might be possible. The Jehovah's Witnesses
can teach you allot if you let them. They are total bible literalists.
They really believe in and want to properly understand everything that
the ancient mystics recorded. Jehovah's Witnesses believe that the highest
good accomplishable by a human being is to help another human being, or
help themselves, to reach a state of love, understanding and propriety
between God, the Creator, Jehovah, and that person. This is their core
teaching. There is a scripture, someone asked Jesus what is the highest
commandment? #1 love God with your whole soul and your whole being.
#2 love your neighbor as yourself. I didn't quote it perfect, but I
think you know the verse. That's a key-stone in the whole JW ideology.
So if you ask one of them for a bible study, they will always say yes.
Look up kingdom hall in the phone book if you haven't seen them at your doors.
I think other branches of christianity are valid too.
I think Jesus was a real and powerful spirit incarnate.
For example I believe that there has been healings in the name of Jesus Christ.
I totally believe that. I believe that fools and the Illuminati try to hide
that fact from us so they make sure that proof of God's(?) miracles are
hidden from us but yes, I believe in miracles. I don't think that the Illuminati
always existed. And even when it does exist, it can't control every detail of
every culture. Miracles happened in the passed, and sometimes people recorded it.

I'm wondering which of the two spirit groups I should choose to devote myself to,
in my afterlife and even now. Do I choose the Somaras, or do I choose the kingdom
of Christ? I think I'll choose the Somaras, but I might change my mind later.
I believe that Jesus Christ has many bodies and lives. He exists beyond the limits
of a singular ego or body. He has a super mind that operates inside of multiple
bodies and multiple dimensions. I call Jesus Christ J.C.
J.C. has been all over the universe; He's met all kinds of souls and beings.
J.C. has a huge repository of followers and he seeks to always welcome more
and more new followers. His followers help him. And he shares his essence,
spirit, knowledge, abilities and "blood" with his closer followers. That's
how he had apostles. Now he has a huge load of apostles and they are part
of his Kingdom, for the prince of peace. These ideas are based on my visions.
I could be wrong. My logic brain thought that Jesus was a big fake. But
I chose to trust my visions of JC, and remember that miracles have been
preformed in his name. Therefor I believe in the kingdom of christ.
But I could be wrong. I'm very sure that if Jesus isn't real, there's
a spirit that does allot of what Jesus would have done, out there,
helping people, ready to be discovered.

I don't know much about the truth of ancient mysticism. The greeks had an
oracle if I remember right. Even the chinese had some oracles, I think. Oracles
were special people who could house a strong spirit inside of their bodies
then have that spirit speak through them. The spirit could also be a 'god'.
I think a really strong god wouldn't need you to be an oracle before he
could talk through you. He or she could choose anyone. In bible
mysticism, I think that the way it worked, God had to choose you,
and you kinda had to choose God aswel. Then ya had to write down everything
God told you and follow all of his instructions. That's not something
you can just duplicate in a lab. That's not under our meager control.
That's beyond our meager technology. But none-the-less, I believe that
the art of mysticism was practiced with some degree of success. I think
that good/convenient oracles are human bodies and souls which are more
connected to the frabric of the higher planes of which gods and spirits
operate from. Due to this these people can be a conduit for spirits.
I know one person who thinks he has spirits talking through him all of the time.
I've tested him a bit. For example, I ask his spirit what color of shirt
I am wearing or what color of pants. And there's no way he would normally
physically know this, but anyways, i give no clues, and so far, he's got it right.
The spirit says the true colors of my cloths. So in that way, I think it's
possible that he's an authentic oracle. His name is Aryn, online, anyways.
I seek to make occult contacts, and learn as much as possible in this life.
I'm not yet ready to kill myself. So I'm going to just live for a while
but I'm going to try to be as spiritual as possible.

Ok. I believe that the main thing that the Somaras teach, is that it's
possible for us to make things good. We can make things better and better,
and we should, and as it gets better, it will become easier to do, until
we reach a really great rate of change. Goodness according to Somaras,
is power, intelligence, complexity, efficiency, harmony, purpose,
meaning, moral virtues, destruction of evil, etc. We can do at least
some of these things in our own little way once we know how and try.

I believe that Christ teaches: Love and the divine source are supposedto
be the main focal points in our existence if we personally truly choose
to do what is most right.

Besides magick and occult i'm also into psionics.
There's not very many people into the occult but I think it should be more common.
I think occult is mainly about A: spirits, B: the true nature of reality.
I think religion is mainly about A: the universal truth B: moral propriety.

Before I start to trust or believe in the voices in my head, I first want them
to do things like tell me what your hair color is without ever meeting you,
or predict future events down to a T. Right now I think my voices are a very
low quality conduction of a variety of processes and partially are just noisey
nonsense and brainfarts. But I'm trying to be as open as I can be for potential
Goods coming into my consciousness.

I like you I think God considers you a precious gem and He/it feels love for you
beyond the limits of your comprehension.

I will send copies of my PM to other people maybe.
I hope that you wont mind?
I'm done talking for now, but if you want more spray,
I will give more.


Send maybe to Faust.
Send to Natalie
Back up on harddrive 2